Peace.
My mind was at rest. I relaxed on my side, my arms tucked over my breast. My chest rose and fell in a rhythmic beat. My breathing even, my body curled up, my messy hair falling over my lightly blushed face, I was fast asleep. It was an early Saturday morning, usually I was awake by now to my own accord. For some reason, however, today I did not stir. The only movement I made was either from deep within me or the occasional twitch.
Everything in the house was quiet. Benevolent. My house was usually like this, but it was still something to be enjoyed, relished. With the smallest smile in the corner of my mouth; I
Peace.
My mind was at rest. I relaxed on my side, my arms tucked over my breast. My chest rose and fell in a rhythmic beat. My breathing even, my body curled up, my messy hair falling over my lightly blushed face, I was fast asleep. It was an early Saturday morning, usually I was awake by now to my own accord. For some reason, however, today I did not stir. The only movement I made was either from deep within me or the occasional twitch.
Everything in the house was quiet. Benevolent. My house was usually like this, but it was still something to be enjoyed, relished. With the smallest smile in the corner of my mouth; I
With each stroke of the keys
the tune plays so delicately
gentle, slow
Violins waver in a rush of melancholy
a cascade of broken noise
curtains fall upon the empty stage
the crowd departs
touched & burdened
[ silence. ]
Reeling.
Mind, body, soul.
Memories of needles against flesh,
hands held,
eyes locked.
Christmas stars on the walls,
feathered masks and jewels
and so much glitter;
I am a four year old's fantasy.
Growing, changing,
breath-takingly alive,
thriving,
thrown-down,
writhing
under sheets,
rejoicing in my body's
capabilities.
Spilling out, twirling, whirling,
hurtling further out into space,
reaching,
setting pace,
exploding into
awesome, sequined,
rebirth.
Out of the ashes rises woman,
she is strong.
Hello. My name is Jack, or at least, that's one of my names. I am twenty-one years old, I live in the United States, I am a part-time mute by choice, and I am a compulsive liar.
This account is my therapy, so I hope you don't mind if I stay for awhile. I am only here so my voice can be heard {so to speak} and to exorcize some ghosts of my past.
I've been writing since I was in sixth grade, that much is truthful. Though I started on role-playing forums on Proboards, I am now trying to spread my wings and accomplish something. However, what I am trying to achieve I am not for certain. I've moved on from various animal role-play sites and now wish nothing more than to feel at peace. Dark memories clutter and fester inside the depths of my psyche, my mind is pestered and harassed by demons that I want to leave behind. Writing has always been my release, my sanctuary. With the power of words at my fingertips I could create the happy ending I have always desired, or I can share my story.
My goal is to remain anonymous, aside from the memories that I portray through deviations right here on DeviantART, I truly do not feel that any of you reading this deserve any more truth. I will lie about my identity, but not about my past. It's just the way things are.
... Though... I am rather fond of the name Jack...
Favourite Movies
What Dreams May Come, Nightmare Before Christmas, Milk, Lord of the Rings trilogy
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
Breaking Benhamin, A-Ha, Depeche Mode, David Grey, Norah Jones, Toad the Wet Sprocket, Smashing Pumpkins, Evanescence
After taking a hiatus, one that was longer than intended, I have returned. Unfortunately I do not carry any pieces of literature with me.
Life has been crawling by, the end of the school year is upon me. Summer is looming over. I hear many police sirens-- something that is unusual in my home town.
Self harm continues.
https://iwl.me/s/d760c1b4
Apparently I write like him. I think I'll look into his works, to see how accurate this is...
To find out who you write like- https://iwl.me/
What has become of us?
We used to be so close
Never one without the other
We were two halves of the same whole
We went through hell together
I had nothing to hide
It took forever to break down your walls
Now I'm just looking for a place to feel welcome
I miss you so
I love you
And since you've been gone a stitching in my heart has come undone
Please don't leave me like this
I don't want to lose you
Can't you see you mean everything to me?
The best part of me was always you
And it always will be
You're my reason to keep on going
You are my strength
You are my light
Please don't go... I need you...